The day I wrote that blog post still runs into my mind with vivid detail.
I was a Sophomore back then. Those were the days that when anger or sadness threatens to pour out of me, I would blog before feelings got out of hand. It just so happened that I had a bad day.
My best friend was replacing me, or so I thought. I was immature back then, and my fourteen-year-old self assumed her best friend replaced her for someone more popular. (at least in BHS anyway) Whether my best friend DID replace me or not, my mood was really ugly that day, and as soon as I got online, I let it all out in that post.
What I didn’t expect later on was to get 300+ notes on that post. It may not be a big deal to others, but to me it is. It made me feel relieved that I am not the only one who feels such pain in this world. It made me feel relieved that I am not the only one being replaced. It made me feel that I am not worthless after all, because everyone goes through the same crap as I do. It’s just how they manage to stay strong that they cope with such feelings.
Looking back, I am glad I made that blog post. Now, whenever I feel replaced or betrayed, I could just remind myself that people get to that point of their lives wherein the people they value replaces them for someone better.
And I could just remind myself to stay strong despite everything, because I am not alone.